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Escape From Destiny

Jamie song, about Jamie, a good friend who I talk about in my autobiography. For a while, she helped take care of me, always a cheerful smile and a brights spark wherever she went. When she came in to see me, she would always start out with, "good morning Little Rosebud." One day, she had a tragic accident and became paralyzed far worse than I. She lost the use of her arms, of her legs, she lost the ability to speak. She was unable to breathe except through a respirator and she wasn't able to eat except through a feeding tube. She was in pain 24 hours a day and communicated only through a special device that converted her eye movements into words on a computer screen. She was fully alert, but in essence, she was now and always would be, buried alive in her own body. Jamie's song is my dedication to her.

High Don, who I talked about in my autobiography, could sleep 18 hours a day, liked doing drugs but little else and would lie, cheat and steal at every opportunity. An unfortunate person to invite into your home, but often, I would have little other choice, because of the circumstances of my physical condition, financial condition and lack of family support to survive. I was jealous and mad. He was a good-looking guy and a former athlete. Seeing him throw away his life and his body while I wanted to live and do, but could not, was very hard to take. This song is dedicated to the people who might choose his choices, but may consider getting out while they still can.


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My Old Music Studio

For you computer and musician nostalgic buffs,

I was using a Mac IIci, a 1X CD writer (very slow). The CDs went into enclosed plastic cases that were inserted into the CD drive. No chance of scratching there and a radiation screen covering the front of the monitor. The scanner took about two minutes to scan one page (ugh) but the $2000. 00 black and white printer printed some pretty sexy sharp images. Doesn't cost $2000 now. And that was a discounted price. My music used a 16 channel mixing board with a MIDI controller to an eight channel reel to reel which synchronized the speed of the tape to the speed of the synthesizer. That left seven channels for recording, one synchronization channel and eight more channels on the mixing board for the 8  channel rack M1R by Korg synthesizer. The Korg M1 and the Korg M1R were champs in their time, and still in demand. I usually used about four or five instruments on the Korg, driven by the Mac IIci, giving me four more channels to record my voice over my voice redundantly if I needed to, or if I needed the tracks for recording my doo-wop girls or other background singers.

Not quite visible, but to the right was my Harman Kardon Dolby cassette tape deck that would record left or right audio separately or together and a duel cassette recorder for copying (dubbing) extra copies. Even at the stage of computers of the Mac IIci era, it had infinitely more power than the $35,000 photo typesetter used during my printing company days, long before home computers.

The Mac IIci was capable of typesetting and printing, handling negatives and positives easier, then the $100,000 worth of printing equipment I had in my advertising agency/printshop.

Behind me and below the mixing board was some sound effects boards that stabilized or enhanced singing voices, added wow and flutter, echo, and reverb. Finally, I had the handpiece of my phone held in place next to my ear, with the phone mounted under the shelf. One day, the shelves flimsy supports gave way, and the whole wall of equipment fell down like a giant tsunami of equipment. Note to self, stronger shelf brackets. Self designed system, I controlled everything with an air tube and a mouth stick.

Pictured (above left), in my early attempt to write music after my injury using the Mac SE and an Ensoniq EPS sampler keyboard. Just above the Ensoniq was my 350 Watt per channel amplifier. I didn't know when I bought it, 350 Watts was just too much power for my little row home. The lowest setting was way too loud.

Pictured (above right), was my comp edit 5810 photo typesetter. At 900 pounds, two 8 inch floppy disks, 16k ram and 16 type styles at one time. I brought this to my home when my ad agency/print shop closed. I wanted to make extra money, typesetting. The small black boxes in the upper right-hand corner each contained a typestyle with four variations. The monitor for the comp edit 5810 was so large, I had to break a hole in the wall behind it, pushing the monitor partially into the wall in order to make room for the typing keyboard in front of it.

(Pictured above) me and my doo-wop girls at the Camden riverfront New Jersey, just before going on to perform my song, "The Storm".